Sinful Desire

Chapter 11-Crushed

*Kurt’s POV*

It was a few day’s later and I was well enough to get out of the infirmary. ‘How could all of that have been a lie? A dream? I don’t understand this at all!’ I was in my room now and headed down to eat dinner that I didn’t feel like having. I trudged into the room, sighing slightly when I saw the only open spot was next to Charles. ‘Of course!’ I thought, taking my seat and frowning slightly.

I picked at my food, not really tasting it at all. I tried not to listen to his voice, but failed miserably. Each time Charles said anything, it sent a painful jolt through my heart. ‘I thought…my heart couldn’t hurt as badly as it did before, but now!’

“Kurt?” His soft voice asked. “Are you alright?” His hand moved to touch mine gently and I pulled it away quickly.

“I’m alright.” I said, barely managing to keep the tremor out of my voice. I stood, picking up my plate. “I just need to lie down for a while.” I stated, hurrying out of the room to take care of my dishes. I heard him enter the room behind me and quickly teleported before he could say anything. Once in my room, I let the tears fall from my eyes. “I don’t know how much I can take of this!” I muttered to the empty room as I curled in a ball on my bed and cried.

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*Kurt’s POV*

I couldn’t sleep at all, there was no way I could get to sleep without…without seeing him first. Sighing I slid out of bed and crept down the hallway to his room. I pushed the door open and entered the room slowly, making sure he was there and asleep. I crawled onto the bed and looked down at Charles as he slept, fighting the tears that threatened to fall. Pushing his shirt up, I began running my finger’s lightly over his stomach. ‘Something…doesn’t seem right.’ I thought, stilling my hands.

I looked around the room, finding nothing amiss I returned my gaze to him. ‘Must just be my head injury.’ I thought as I outlined the muscles on Charles’ stomach. ‘How much have I made up? Was my obsession with Charles so strong that I could have possibly made up the time we spent together? Really? What else did I imagine?’ My fingers stroked down his side, then stilled. “Wait…” I whispered to the dark. “Where’s the scar? Did I imagine that as well?’ Sighing I moved away from him and slid out of the room heading back to my own. “How much of my life has been a lie?” I wondered out loud as I fell into a restless sleep.

Tbc

Next chapter will be longer! I’m actually going to work on it now. Let me know what you think of this one! XD